I haven't wanted to say it because I feel unfaithful. I trust God. I know that He never shows up a day late. I know that He knows what He is doing. I want His will to be done. And so I struggle. I wrestle with myself and God and the enemy everyday. I try and replace my feelings with the Truth of Gods Word.
I know the truth in my head and in my heart.
But this mommas heart is breaking for her little girl!
I want to hold her and kiss her. I want to tell her how precious she is. I want to tell her she is chosen, and loved. I want to grieve her losses with her. I want to wipe her tears, and drink in her smiles. I want to rock her and read her stories. I want to give her baths, and play with her hair. I want to play dress up with her, and let her try on all my jewelry. I want to whisper in her ear "you are daughter of the Most High King, and He loves you!"
And so today, I wept at the foot of my Saviors Cross, and I begged Him to bring her home soon. I proclaimed His truth that He sets the lonely in families, and to please bring my daughter home. Today He showed me that is exactly where I needed to be! At the foot of the Cross, pleading my case, because He hears me. And today I feel strengthened knowing that my Savior's will be done on Earth as it is in heaven. Today I believe that He is going to move mountains and bring me my baby girl home, because that is where she belongs!
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13
Today I have joy and peace because He is my HOPE!
Please join me, and the other families waiting to bring their babies home in prayer. Lets storm the gates of heaven for the lonely ones.
3 comments:
Your words speak volumes Lynds! My heart aches for you and then again is overjoyed by your Hope and Trust in God! I will continue to pray for that sweetness to arrive soon in yours and Barts, Autumn, Austin, Aiden, and Asher's arms! Oh and Miss Kitty too! She will just LOVE another one to chase her around! Love you Lyndsay!
You are speaking my heart. We, too, are boldly asking God to move the mountains to bring our little girl home.
I am in a place of brokenness, and that is right where my savior wants me to be.
We are storming the gates of heaven with you.
Love,
laura
www.littlehoffman.blogspot.com
Thank-you so much for posting this and for crying out to our Lord and Savior to hear our joined cries to be with our little ones. I've been raising my hands to Heaven in prayer and petition trusting that through the will and power of Jesus this can all be lifted and resolved. My husband and I will be joining you all in prayer and fast... May God move the mountain in our paths...
Blessings,
jamie
www.beneaththeacaciatree.com
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