I have struggled blogging lately. I have written 3 or 4 entries and then deleted them. The wait is getting HARD!
I haven't wanted to say it because I feel unfaithful. I trust God. I know that He never shows up a day late. I know that He knows what He is doing. I want His will to be done. And so I struggle. I wrestle with myself and God and the enemy everyday. I try and replace my feelings with the Truth of Gods Word.
I know the truth in my head and in my heart.
But this mommas heart is breaking for her little girl!
I want to hold her and kiss her. I want to tell her how precious she is. I want to tell her she is chosen, and loved. I want to grieve her losses with her. I want to wipe her tears, and drink in her smiles. I want to rock her and read her stories. I want to give her baths, and play with her hair. I want to play dress up with her, and let her try on all my jewelry. I want to whisper in her ear "you are daughter of the Most High King, and He loves you!"
And so today, I wept at the foot of my Saviors Cross, and I begged Him to bring her home soon. I proclaimed His truth that He sets the lonely in families, and to please bring my daughter home. Today He showed me that is exactly where I needed to be! At the foot of the Cross, pleading my case, because He hears me. And today I feel strengthened knowing that my Savior's will be done on Earth as it is in heaven. Today I believe that He is going to move mountains and bring me my baby girl home, because that is where she belongs!
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Today I have joy and peace because He is my HOPE!
Please join me, and the other families waiting to bring their babies home in prayer. Lets storm the gates of heaven for the lonely ones.