My dear girlfriend said to me on Monday when I told her the news... adoption is not for sissies... she is so right!
This process has been so much more difficult than I ever imagined! There have been ups and downs, sometimes even hour by hour. My emotions have been all over the place. And I cannot imagine having to walk this road without my sweet Savior!
My faith has grown immensely in this process. And I'll tell you what; adoption is great for your prayer life!
Everything that is good in my life has been hard! I have asked God for His very best in my life, and that NEVER comes without struggle. Obedience is ALWAYS hard, because we have an enemy who wants to thwart Gods plans. But we also have a promise that Jesus has already overcome our adversary. He is already victorious, therefore I am already victorious!
I have a promise that God will make ALL things work together for my good!
I am learning that the faster I run to the arms of my Savior and cry out to Him, the sooner He heals my broken heart.
The Comforter reminds me of His promises, and I can walk in His truth.
I am learning to be thankful for the pain because it is now that He is pruning me, and forming me into the image of the Son.
I am learning that ALL the pain is worth it because He redeems it all, and makes it something beautiful. And I want to be beautiful, not 'happy'. I want joy, not an 'easy life'.
I am learning that when I am weak, and at the end of my rope, feeling like I cannot do this anymore, He wipes my tears, and says "give it to me". And in that place He whispers His truth in my ears. "You are not alone. You are weak, but I AM strong. I have already overcome."
I am learning that I am NOT a sissy!
He is the Creator of heaven and earth. He is not surprised by anything that has gone on in our adoption. He has chosen me to be B's mother. He will bring our daughter home to us.
He will be glorified!