My dear girlfriend said to me on Monday when I told her the news... adoption is not for sissies... she is so right!
This process has been so much more difficult than I ever imagined! There have been ups and downs, sometimes even hour by hour. My emotions have been all over the place. And I cannot imagine having to walk this road without my sweet Savior!
My faith has grown immensely in this process. And I'll tell you what; adoption is great for your prayer life!
Everything that is good in my life has been hard! I have asked God for His very best in my life, and that NEVER comes without struggle. Obedience is ALWAYS hard, because we have an enemy who wants to thwart Gods plans. But we also have a promise that Jesus has already overcome our adversary. He is already victorious, therefore I am already victorious!
I have a promise that God will make ALL things work together for my good!
I am learning that the faster I run to the arms of my Savior and cry out to Him, the sooner He heals my broken heart.
The Comforter reminds me of His promises, and I can walk in His truth.
I am learning to be thankful for the pain because it is now that He is pruning me, and forming me into the image of the Son.
I am learning that ALL the pain is worth it because He redeems it all, and makes it something beautiful. And I want to be beautiful, not 'happy'. I want joy, not an 'easy life'.
I am learning that when I am weak, and at the end of my rope, feeling like I cannot do this anymore, He wipes my tears, and says "give it to me". And in that place He whispers His truth in my ears. "You are not alone. You are weak, but I AM strong. I have already overcome."
I am learning that I am NOT a sissy!
He is the Creator of heaven and earth. He is not surprised by anything that has gone on in our adoption. He has chosen me to be B's mother. He will bring our daughter home to us.
He will be glorified!
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I'm so sorry to read all this, I already knew you weren't a sissy but I'm glad you're learning it too. :)
Now how do I possibly give you any words of comfort after reading what you posted Lynds! You said it all and then some. You encourage me always even through your trials Lyndsay! You are a strong, un-sissy woman and the outcome, the blessing, the entire package God has planned is going to knock the socks off the enemy... and this ALL for God's glory and nothing more. And here is something to leave you with that a wonderful friend always tells me... God is Good ALL the time! Love you my friend.
oh-- I've been thinking about you and praying hard!!! My mom just said today, "not one thing (in this adoption process) has gone the way you ever could have imagined." and yet, I'm filled with PEACE and COMFORT knowing that it has all gone according to God's plan... and He will be glorified in it all!!! I sooo believe that and your sweet B will be home and forever part of your family...... sooner than I hope you are even imagining right now! Praying for you.... and am so blessed by you!!!
You are so strong and being such an example of a woman of GREAT FAITH. He is being glorified and sweet Miss B will know of a great love her mama had for her and how hard she prayed her home!
Love you friend.
Amen! What beautiful truths in the midst of so much heartache. Praying with you.
Praying for you!
You're inspiring me as you trust God through this trial. Keep trusting in HIM!
Heartbroken with you. What a journey it's already been for you. Praying with you for miracles upon miracles!
So well said! I can't wait for the day when we will all look back on this whole process and say "Wow! Wasn't God's timing perfect! Isn't He good and gracious." I know that day will come before we know it.
Praying for you all.
I'm with Soko on this one. We are waiting for our referral right now, and, though it's not easy, I'm confident in God's perfect timing.
I'm so happy to find a family adopting from ET similar to ours. We also have 4 bio, 3 boys, 1 girl and our kids are older 9-15. I've got you bookmarked & will be following your journey.
Well Said!!! My husband and I also adopting 2 kids form ET. It has been a LONG & HARD 3 years. We are on our 3rd agency to bring them home. I SOOOO know you feeling. It is something you deal with EVERYDAY and is SOOOO beyond hard..BUT, like you said we give to to God and we will take care of it. HE helps us get through each and every day. Thank GOD!!! I will continue to follow your blog and will pray for you. HUGS!!
Karen ( hernkek@yahoo.com)
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